Just a mummy with Lyme

People ask me alot “How is your health now you have baby?”

Honestly, I didn’t know if I could have children. There is some research suggestion lyme can interfere with fertility and a healthy pregnancy.

My “plan” was get up to date testing at where I was at with Lyme via Armin Labs and make sure I was in tip top shape before we discussed babies. Did I even want children? Would I have preferred to use a surrogate to avoid transmission via pregnancy?  Adoption? SO MANY QUESTIONS, CONCERNS, WORRIES it went on and on.

 We got married September 2017 and fell pregnant September 2017 (using the Natural Cycles app) we weren’t trying to have a baby, these things sometimes happen. I was scared. Really scared. But we trusted God had a plan for our family.

Generally through pregnancy I was OK, I had low iron at the end and had to have a few infusions but I was generally OK. No sickness, mainly just more fatigue than normal plus some prenatal low mood/depression/anxiety.

The birth. That didn’t go as expected. I ended up having an emergency C section. Again, I was scared I thought this is a HUGE stress on the body to undergo such serious emergency surgery, the drugs, the injections I had to do afterwards, the general healing the body then had to undertake. I was scared. Really scared. Again. Plus I had a baby to care for, no sleep and I also chose to breastfeed exclusively.

(Side note – there is mixed evidence lyme can be passed through breast milk. But when I weighted up the benefits vs the chance of transmission I still felt the benefits of BF far outweighed the transmission – personal choice).

IF Noah were to show any signs of Lyme I would get him tested of course, but he has a mummy who specialises in this topic so I would hope we would be able to help.

 

Self care – this is such a buzz word right now but I knew I had to take care of myself post partum, but that should be for every mum. I am very lucky we live close to both sets of parents and we have wonderful friends – my sister had her first baby 11 weeks before me so that was such a blessing for us.

Mummy self care – stock the freezer with homemade curries, chillies, casseroles. Make overnight oats the night before so you have a breakfast ready and waiting, resort to boiled egg, oat cakes and hummus, avocado on toast when it’s a crazy mad day but keep well fed. Eating enough is so important for mum and baby if you want to BF. I also made sure when baby slept I slept, a lot of the time I couldn’t switch off my head was buzzing but I still lay down and even now as he is 10months old I still have a lie down in the daytime when he has his afternoon nap.

I put Noah in a routine from 2 months old – both for me and him because I knew I needed structure so I had rest times and also for my sanity, and now he is such a baby of routine he knows how the day flows.

I asked for help.

I knew I needed “me time” so I would go for a bath in the evening, do some meditation, ask dad to get up and do breakfast.

I don’t compare myself to the next mum. We are all different. We all parent differently and I would drive myself mad trying to compare to every single mum out there. You know whats best for your baby and family.

 

Baby Noah care – organic homemade food with fats and protein – dairy/gluten free, filtered water, low EMF’s in the house, non toxic nappy cream/body creams/shampoo, non toxic laundry liquid, breast feeding still (aged 10 months), probiotics, vitamin D, etc etc. I’m passionate to give him the best start in life to avoid having any possible problems in the future.

 

I now have a 10 month old baby. Generally speaking I’m doing OK (yes I get low, yes it’s flipping hard, yes my body has taken a battering, yes it’s stressful but yes it’s amazing, yes he’s a brilliant baby and yes it’s actually a joy). I have recently tested my adrenals and my cortisol (stress hormone) is high – no massive shock there. So I’ve made time for yoga, increased healthy fats, been thoughtful with my work/life balance, good bedtime routine etc.

 

This has all taught me to trust my body. For years and years I hated myself and my body, it had only ever let me down but now things feel different. It didn’t let me down, it conceived my baby, it grew him, it birthed him, it healed from a big surgery, it kept my baby alive via feeding, it’s actually pretty awesome.

I think this only continues to prove you can recover from Lyme/CFS. The body can heal given the right circumstances and you too can have a healthy life and a healthy baby. Some people have quick easy recoveries, some have ups and down like I did but keep the hope and keep fighting if you’re in the trenches right now.

 

The new baby trend saving the planet…

Is there really a new fashion in the baby world which can help save the planet?

Alot of “eco stuff” is abit trendy now but who would have thought cloth nappies would get a look in on the fashion stakes.

When I fell pregnant I did look into cloth nappies but I thought theres so much to think about I didn’t have the headspace to consider that on top of figuring out feeding, bathing, clothing and just generally keeping my baby alive.

But when he was 6 months old I started to research again, a good baby friend of mine has always used cloth with her little girl (plus they were apart of the Aldi baby sale – HELLOOO discounts).

It’s true what they say, once you go cloth you don’t go back. I’d love to say I want to save the plant (it is a concern of mine) but really, they are so cute!! The prints!

This is just a quick myth busting, how to get started and the benefits. It’s not an in depth look at all, but there are plenty of places to look for cloth advice on the internet this is a ‘basics blog’.

 

Benefits for us:

FINANCES!! – I added up if we kept Noah in disposables for 2 years until potty training, and lets say we had 2 children a conservative estimate would be £1000!!!!! Whereas I have bought a set of cloth nappies, inserts, disposable wipes etc. all for approx £200 and once Noah is potty trained I will either pass to future babies or sell. WIN WIN I’d say. It’s worth mentioning if you live down south alot of councils will give you a grant to get started with cloth nappies – it’s worth checking, unfortunately we didn’t get a grant but I will be writing to our local council.

 

Sensitive skin – I was heartbroken when Noah started with abit of eczema on his tummy and back. I do have to say it has cleared up since using cloth nappies. I obviously don’t know if it is coincidence, perhaps he’s sensitive to the manufacturing of disposables?

 

Environmental – I listened to Madeline Shaw podcast on “Plastic free parenting” (seriously check it out) and she said 8 MILLION nappies go into landfill EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I was shocked! And each one takes approx 250 years to decompose. So the nappies we had on X amount of years ago haven’t even begin to decompose.

Myth busting:

Do I touch poo all day long cleaning poo off his nappies – No there is a liner in the nappy which catches any poo and I just shake that into the loo and flush 🙂

Is it a faf? – Not really, dirty nappy off, into the nappy washing bin, throw into the wash 2x per week, dry, restuff, pop into drawer, use again. So yes it is more work than putting a nappy in the trash but you get used to it.

Are you doing laundry all day every day? – No I only need to put 2x more washes on per week

Is your washing machine not just full of poo? – No all poo goes into the toilet like anyone

 

What you need to get started – well the quick answer – one cloth nappy is all you need to get started but if you wanted to do disposable free:

14x bambino mio nappies  https://www.bambinomio.com

2x Little and Bloomz nappies  https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B00E66NSIU/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o02_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

10 bamboo inserts (to add to nappy if your baby wees)  https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B00EHRHAEG/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

Washable liners (catch the poo)  https://littlelambnappies.com/products/washable-fleecy-liners

Laundry bag (I keep in the bathroom to hold dirty cloths)  https://littlelambnappies.com/products/mesh-laundry-bag

Washable wipes (we use way too many disposable wipes – easy peasy to throw in the wash with nappies)  https://www.cheekywipes.com/cloth-baby-wipes/cotton-terry-cloth-baby-wipes.html

Bag (to put dirty nappy in changing bag to bring home)  https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B073GHVP7H/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o04_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

 

If you are seriously considering it i say DO IT you won’t regret it. There are ‘nappy libraries’ all over the UK where you borrow a kit for 6 weeks to see if it works for you, your baby and your family, which brands of nappy you like etc before you make that initial investment. I personally didn’t do that because I bought a couple of Bambino Mio from the Aldi baby sale, loved it and just bought more and asked some advice from my friend and cloth bum mums online.

I was abit afraid my husband wouldn’t be on board but he loves it! The only issue is not keep buying more and more cute prints when you have more than enough. (Send help).

I can imagine it’s harder to do cloth from day one (breastfeeding poo explosions I imagine are tricky to clean) but now he’s 7 months we don’t get that anymore.

 

Jump on the fluff bum mum bandwagon, save your money, save the planet, be a fashionista (apparently) whats not to love!!

Rebecca and Noah x

 

 

Life has seasons – UPDATE

Happy Friday folks, sorry for the absence, I’ve been kind of busy… I had a baby!!

Baby Noah is nearly 7 months now, life has been busy figuring out how on earth we care for a newborn, figuring out feeding, realising how little sleep you can actually function on, prioritising life as a family, laughing, cuddling, crying but mainly loving our little boy.

I never dared to dream this would be my life. We even found time to buy a house and move in during this time (whilst I constantly tell clients to pace themselves and not stress themselves too much, the irony isn’t lost on me – keep your eyes peeled for what I have learnt here).

Having a baby has definitely taught me what matters, the house isn’t perfect, my sleep isn’t perfect, heck my diet is far from perfect but life has seasons. Seasons to be on top form, seasons to take life slowly, seasons to just get through the day, but seasons come and go, that’s the point.

After the crazy newborn phase of literally having no concept of time or what day it is we are in a nice routine now. I’m feeling very blessed to have a job I love where I can work around my baby and not be too far away from him.

If you’re a new mum in that early phase let me say it gets better, they do sleep, you do get back to normality.

My advice –batch cook casseroles, chilli, stews for the freezer to make sure you eat well.

When you are exhausted it’s so important to eat well and look after yourself.

Get in a bubble bath, do your nails, read a book for 20 minutes. Sleep when baby sleeps, all the clichés. Ask for help, it takes a village to raise these little ones. But enjoy it, they grow fast, put your phone down, soak up the moments of them feeding, of them asleep on you, of the tiny baby toes.

I’m really enjoying the work I’m doing work with Mamas and Papas at the moment, I’m doing talks at their events to help pregnant mummy’s with their nutrition. I’m back helping my regular clients and doing lots of reading and research behind the scenes.

Life is good, feeling thankful. That’s my short update on life. Until next time.

Pregnancy Update – 34 Weeks

Hello friends, so I know I said I would document this whole thing and I haven’t… so I thought I would do a quick pregnancy update now I am 34 weeks and 6 weeks away from our due date, before 3 becomes 4.

As I have mentioned in an earlier post the first trimester wasn’t brilliant especially mental health wise, but the second trimester I was so lucky it was great. I just lived a normal life really but with a growing tummy. It’s only been in the last month I have really slowed down – when we take Fudge for a walk Joe is always shocked at how slow I now walk – give me a break mate I’m growing a baby over here!

The fatigue has well and truly set in, the dog thinks I have a ball stuffed up my top, the insomnia has kicked in and the back pain has set in but I can’t complain it’s all going well, we have a healthy baby growing in there.

I had begun to go very dizzy but the midwives didn’t seem concerned. However my blood pressure when I did it was very low and when my full blood count came back I was borderline anaemic. I am not a fan of iron tablets so I bought some Spatone and I am taking 2 sachets per day in orange juice. I may not be able to get my iron levels up to where I would like them for birth but I can stop them from going lower. It’s also all about the spinach, red meat and chia seeds everyday.

I think it was also evident I was doing too much, I would go dizzy and faint when I would push my body too much and try to continue as normal, when really I was heavily pregnant, that couldn’t be sustained so I am doing lots and lots of resting now and feeling better for it.

I wish I could post cute photos of the nursery but unfortunately that is the babies dumping ground (pram, cot, mattress, bath, clothes, nappies, playmate, teddies) because we are also in the process of buying a house. Yes I know who does that… well apparently us. It was too good of an opportunity to miss (we are taking bets on which house we have our home birth in). Now usually I would think this is crazy and feel so stressed not knowing where my baby will be born but I think the hypnobirthing has been helping me feel much calmer, the relaxation must be working. But I have big plans for the nursery in the new place. For now it (sorry for the ‘it’ we don’t know the gender) has it’s moses basket set up in our room and it’s little clothes and essentials all ready for it’s arrival.

But the nesting has set in, I just clean anything, literally… it’s crazy. I have taken to watching cleaning videos and following cleaning profiles on Instagram… don’t ask.

Names have been chosen for both boy and girl… ish. But no nobody knows except for the two of us and no we won’t be telling anyone.

And finally my sister and her husband had their baby boy two and a half weeks ago so we are now an auntie and uncle! So we are getting the practice in now whilst we can. It’s also hilarious, Fudge cannot work the baby out at all, when he hiccups she is so confused.

Jobs for the next few weeks: finish buying a house, finish work, bulk make tons of food for the freezer, enjoy our last weeks as a 3, rest, read as many library books as possible before I don’t have time, enjoy this time carrying a baby inside me.

We can’t wait for baby to come now, once I hit that 37 week mark it’s all about getting labour kick started but as we well know, baby knows best and it knows when the time is right. Can’t wait to meet you little one and see who’s been doing all that kicking around, although your cockapoo sister will be abit gutted to find out it wasn’t a ball under mummies top all along.

Hypnobirthing – What Is It?

Hypnobirthing 101

 

“Well good luck with that” they say. That’s what most people say when I tell them I plan to breath my baby out with no pain relief through learning hypnobirthing tools.

 

I came across hypnobirthing from clients really, during my initial consultations I routinely ask if they have children and if it was a natural birth etc. and all my hypnobirthing mums then continue to tell me all about their amazing births. I have to admit at first I thought hmmmm not sure about that but the more and more women I have met who tell me they ENJOYED their birth, they weren’t scared, they had no pain relief and breathed their baby out. When I got pregnant I thought well I better look into this…

This is not the stuff of ‘One Born Every Minute’ because a hypnobirthing mum is possibly the least dramatic thing to watch ever – it probably wouldn’t make good TV, we have watched many hypnobirths during our classes and on Youtube they are amazing births, go and check it out (if your that way inclined).

I think we have become so used to what we see on TV and films and people’s horror stories from years ago. Once upon a time we used to give birth on a bed with legs in stirrups, how on earth does that make sense? Talk about going again nature and gravity! And dads never used to be allowed in the room let alone be involved. But this is now the 21st century surely we need to move on.

Hypnobirthing requires very little intervention (hopefully) from medical professionals, it is focused on the mum and dad working together to birth the baby. My husband will be very involved to help to calm me down, speaking affirmations and playing relaxing music and all round speaking positive truths to me throughout (unless he faints).

 

So what is it? Hypnobirthing is not going into a trance it’s simply the art of mastering breathing techniques and relaxation to calm you down so you can handle your labour in a more relaxed manner.

When the body is in pain and we are scared and afraid all the muscles tighten and we enter ‘fight or flight’, the last thing your body cares to do is birth a baby when all your muscles are tight and your in a state of stress. This is how mothers end up with failure to progress. When we are relaxed during pregnancy and feeling in control the chances of having a quicker birth with less (not no pain) is more likely.

Does it really work? – I’ll let you know.

Benefits: the possibility of a less painful birth, no pain relief, bringing your baby into the world in a calm way in a calm environment, therefore in theory giving birth to a calm baby.

My husband and I have two hypnobirthing books which I would recommend, the course we went on was based on the Marie Mongan theory, the original founder of this technique. But if your pregnant and interested I would recommend these – it’s also never too late even if your 36 weeks you can learn some tools to help you during labour.

(I would also HUGELY recommend this book too – it isn’t hypnobirthing but it is how to have the best birth – it covers nutrition, reflexology, massage, affirmations and it has a week by week breakdown of what you can do that week to help ie. a yoga pose to start or a food to help)

I listen to my positive affirmations everyday and listen to the downloaded relaxation I have on my phone, in the bath or when I go to sleep at night.

(A lovely client also lent me these cards to have around the house as little reminders)

Joe and I have been to a course on Hypnobirthing, it was for 5 weeks with 5 other couples and she taught us the breathing techniques (there are three different breaths to use at different times – the calm breath, surge breath and birth breath), the relaxation tapes, we talked about where we wanted to birth our babies eg. home, hospital or birthing centre and the pros and cons of each, breastfeeding, fears, communication, we did our birth preferences (birth plan), massage, aromatherapy, placenta encapsulation, the role of the dad and his jobs during birth – it was a brilliant course. My mum ended up coming to a couple of sessions because Joe had to work away and I think she was a convert (especially the in class meditation we did every week).

This takes practice, we have to practice everyday and you have to believe this is possible and have a good positive approach to it all. The more you do the relaxation the quicker you can get yourself into that state and the deeper your relaxation can go, win win really (it also helps me to sleep – hello third trimester insomnia).

 

Our rough plan is when labour begins, he can time the surges (a better word for contractions which sounds very harsh) and blow up the pool and add the water. We will create a little bed space for me downstairs with a mattress and pillows and blankets, maybe bounce on my ball for a bit, watch some Netflix. When things rank up we may do some massage to calm me down or some relaxation scripts which Joe can read to me, we will put our LED candles out and create a relaxed atmosphere. When the midwife arrives we will ask her to speak in hushed tones but we mainly want to do this together, the midwife can intervene if needed but otherwise it’s just me focusing on staying relaxed. When necessary I will get into the pool and hopefully we will get the water birth we want. Followed by putting the baby on me immediately for skin to skin for a few hours.

We are planning a home birth (see post below) but you can use hypnobirthing in the hospital or birth centre it’s very simple really.

I can honestly say I am looking forward to the birth and thats coming from someone who has always been petrified of the idea of childbirth to the point where I thought theres no way I could have children. When I found I was pregnant I knew I had to look into other methods rather than the usual scary stuff we are fed by the TV. I hope we can tell a positive story to other people who live in fear of a painful awful birth full of screams, drama and lack of control. We are aiming for more a spa sanctuary, less TV drama, I’ll let you know how it goes. Wish us luck.

Why Home Birth?

Why Homebirth?

 

“So which hospital do you think you want to go to to have the baby?” he said.

“Erm I think I want a homebirth” – husband faints on the floor (only joking he knows me too well by now he was probably fully expecting this) but I can’t say he was fully on board to begin with, well who would be it’s not exactly the norm…

We think home birth we may think hippy, we think unsafe we think WHY??!! Just go to hospital where the doctors and nurses and midwives are.

Even before I was pregnant, if I ever had a baby I always fancied the idea of a homebirth. It’s no surprise around here I have had a chronic illness since being 8 years old so I have had my fair share of hospitals and doctors. I just knew I didn’t want to bring my baby into that environment which to me and my memories is a negative space. I feel it’s a very personal choice on where you decide to birth your baby. I have a lot of negative connotations with hospitals from over the years and I just felt I would be much calmer at home.

The theory goes, a womans waters break, she’s doing nicely and progressing well, then she calls up the hospital and they say “yes come in” so her partner takes her in and suddenly she stops progressing, the labour halts and things drastically slow down. She’s gone into a foreign environment, loud and bright lights with lots of people examining her, in a space she doesn’t know… talk about fight or flight, all of her autonomic nervous system is heightened and the last thing her body wants to do is birth a baby.

Whereas at home, it’s your space, you know it, you’re familiar with it and you can watch Friends on Netflix, drink cups of tea and when the time comes jump in the pool to birth.

Now I am absolutely not disregarding hospitals at all for birthing, as I say it is such an individual choice. We now also have two birthing centres near where we live and I was abit tempted, they are in hospitals but there are no doctors if you need them, you would have to be transferred to the delivery ward and there are no drugs but it is in a hospital setting, but I still clung onto my idea of a homebirth.

 

So needless to say, there will be no drugs available to me at home (maybe a paracetamol) but that’s where hypnobirthing comes in (stay tunes folks). I will have a midwife with me and I will be their only priority. But to be honest when you do hypnobirthing it will me my husband and I who birth the baby not the midwives, we have decided to go for as little intervention as possible (unless in an emergency obviously). Every midwife I mention hypnobirthing and home birth to they love it, to them it is pure midwifery, a woman birthing her baby in her natural environment.

We are obviously not being naïve about this, in an emergency we will be going straight to hospital but for now I’ve been given the OK by two consultants that I am low risk and a homebirth should be absolutely fine.

My husband now just needs to collect the pool, practice filling it up in record time, get those protein snacks at the ready and candles, diffuser with lavender and wait for this little one to make an appearance.

We really are praying we get the birth we are hoping for, to be able to give birth then go and get in my own bed with my baby sounds like pure bliss.

I will be speaking about this more in the coming couple of months, I am tempted to post my birth plan on here once I’ve finished it, let me know if you would be interested, it is quite different to usual.

The way I view with my pregnancy, birth and once the baby is here is to stay close to nature, that’s always been my ethos. If my dog had puppies she would go off into a quiet corner and get on with it like every other animal, when did we make birth so clinical? We are women who can grow babies so of course we can birth them it’s simple nature. I might eat my words but for now that’s what we are aiming for fingers crossed we get it.

 

What to eat when your growing a human…

Hello everyone,

I thought a small blog post on what to eat during pregnancy would be helpful for people, with some ideas for mummies to be, or even if your currently trying to get pregnant. If you’re growing a human surely this is the time to have the best nutrition of your life? To really jump on the band wagon and eat the best you can for yourself and for your little one.

Eating well can help with fatigue, morning sickness, headaches, skin, sleep and the list goes on and on and eating well will keep that little baby growing healthy and strong.

If you want your baby to eat well once it’s born, the theory goes feed it well now whilst in the womb, apparently it can taste the flavours which we as mums eat. So if your a sugar head, chances are your baby will love sugar, if you eat bowls of broccoli, chances are you will get a baby who loves his/her veg… can anyone vouch for this?

That little baby is there is a miracle, and we as mums are solely responsible for feeding it and nurturing it and I strongly believe what we eat as mums makes a difference. For example, the baby needs lots of healthy fats and fish to build its neurons in its brain (we all want brainy kids). The fast rate of cell turnover is unbelievable so common sense says that needs alot of nutrients to reach full potential.

Here are my guidelines which I am following during pregnancy, now don’t get me wrong, I eat the odd bar of chocolate and I have the odd takeaway… I’m pregnant give us a break but for the most part I am really committed to growing this tiny human.

 

  • 3 litres of water per day – filtered or bottled if possible
  • 8 veggies per day – salads, soups, smoothies, 1/2 a plate of veggies with your tea – broccoli, kale, carrots etc.
  • Fats everyday (good fat doesn’t make you fat bad fat does!) – avocado, salmon, seabass, mackerel, sardines, olive oil on salads, Kerrygold butter on my veg and to cook with, eggs (boiled or scrambled), coconut oil to cook with
  • Protein with every meal to keep your blood sugar balance and energy balanced – eggs, meats, lentils, hummus, fish, nuts and seeds
  • Snacks – protein balls from Madeline Shaw or Deliciously Ella, flapjacks (see recipe), avocado mashed with chilli flakes and oat cakes, boiled eggs, hummus and cucumber and carrot sticks, smoothie, juices

         

Above – butternut squash soup |  carrot, orange, beetroot and ginger juice | boiled eggs, asparagus with butter on top, oat cakes and mashed avocado with chilli flakes with a lemon and ginger with hot water. 

I don’t believe in the whole ‘eating for two’ its the size of a plum… but I personally do feel more hungry but as long as it’s all the good stuff I think thats fine.

That’s a really rough idea of the direction to go in. I don’t think the current guidelines are good enough of cereals, breads etc. surely this is the time to eat very nutrient dense foods?

I am putting together some more in depth Nutrition Workshops soon tailored to pregnancy so keep your eyes peeled.

SURPRISE: We’re having a baby!

Well that was a surprise wasn’t it… A baby. A real life human baby.

I wanted to blog this journey and give people another approach to pregnancy and birth. I plan to blog about nutrition for pregnancy, supplements which can be helpful, all things hypnobirthing and home birthing (yep), emotions, books and how to have the most natural, healthy pregnancy (hopefully) you can have for both you and baby.

This is our story: We got married on September 2nd and went off on honeymoon and lived in a bubble of marital bliss for a few weeks. I began to get some warning signs (5 weeks late and horrendous sore boobs – sorry for the overshare but it is a pregnancy post) but I honestly thought it was fine – yes I am stupid and no I know nothing of pregnancy. I had changed my thyroid medication and I assumed my body was dealing with that and my metabolism had changed. Anyway I was down at London Clinic of Nutrition and I was in the middle of my first consult of the day and I felt such an overwhelming feeling of nausea and I thought, OK I am pregnant but I had to carry on and I finished the day feeling awful. I got the train back north and decided to take a test the following morning.

Positive. No questions asked it was a very very strong line. I called my sister in a mad panic (she’s 8 weeks pregnant ahead of me!)

We have decided to be very honest with this journey. This wasn’t part of the plan. Let me tell you friends, these things happen, any contraception is only 99% accurate.

I blame a few things, I’ve never been on the pill so my hormones are pretty balanced, I am healthy and I married a young fertile 22 year old and at the end of the day, we believe God has a plan for us.

I personally was very concerned with how my body would cope with Lyme. I was happy but very worried. Will I pass it on? Will I be able to maintain the pregnancy? How will my health be? Questions galore which nobody can answer. I felt very guilty. The irony is I had begun my own journey to become 100% well so that in maybe a few years I would be in tip top shape to carry a baby.

We had alot of anxiety, alot of worry, we had no idea how pregnant we were but when we saw that baby on the screen on the first scan it was unreal. A baby with a heart beat.

We just had our 20 week scan last week and it’s crazy, it has little arms and legs and fingers and toes and a heart beat and a spine. It’s unbelievable. We decided we didn’t want to know the gender, having a healthy baby is our only concern.

I have mentally struggled alot with the whole thing, which is tough because I feel in society this isn’t spoken about. I feel so overwhelmingly grateful to be pregnant but I don’t feel how everyone tells me I should. Not everyone has the excitement or the positive experience you dream of. But me being me I just threw myself into my diet and preparation for birth and the house. But I do think this needs to be spoken about more, there isn’t a ‘right way’ to feel about this. Mental health is a crazy business and as a newly wed couple we planned a very different next few years. Being selfish, enjoying each other and enjoying married life. We still will have adventures and we still will enjoy married life (I hope!) but we will have a little person with us, a little mini me (or mini Joe).

We are now 24 weeks pregnant and we are so happy to say we are now so thrilled, so happy and really looking forward to this next chapter. We have Hypnobirthing classes next month and we are slowly getting our nursery ready and I have started to wind down for work.

I am so lucky, I have not had any sickness (apart from that one day – weird), no headaches or huge fatigue. I’ve done very well really, as I say I have struggled more mentally. I had some really really black days and I would just cry and cry (let me know if you want a blog post on this it’s hard to know how much detail to go into).

I have a big bump now and a whole new wardrobe, Fudge is thinking I look weird and Joe is busy looking after his team members ready for our new member to arrive on 5th July. See you soon little one. Can’t wait to welcome you home.

Stay tuned…

The Day We Got Married

The Day We Got Married

It happened, the day I NEVER EVER thought would happen happened.

He’s awesome, the day was amazing, everything looked beautiful – take that chronic illness.

Try telling the teenage version of me I would ever get married, that would be kind of a joke. I was written off by the medical establishment, even being in a wheelchair and told to ‘learn to live with it’ well learning to live with it would never have resulted in me getting married or even finding Joe. I’m so glad I looked into Nutrition and the root cause.

Anyway, loads of super kind people and clients have asked about the day so I thought I would do a blog post with some pics (because thats what people really want to see right).

I got ready with my 4 bridesmaids which was super cute and special, my 4 girls who have stood by me and never let me down. We drank champagne and had our hair and make up done.

We had a 3pm wedding at our church which was super special, it was full of family and friends and church family, all the children we teach at church each week came down all dressed up and we had our vicar do the service which was such a special touch because he is so dear to both of us. We then had a close friend do the talk, he was great, and we had friends sing with the band. We have alot of very talented friends. (I became a Christian 7 year ago – you will have to scroll back in blogs to find that story). The day before(!!) we decided Fudge probably shouldn’t walk me down the isle, I mean, what if she did decide to have toilet time half way down the isle, not a high chance but not a chance I want to take when she has anxiety problems, with 200 people in a church, a full band and an organ… yeah anything could have happened. So I put together a video montage which nobody knew about. It began the night before the wedding and Fudge going to bed, then she got up, ran into the shower, ran downstairs, got in the car, ran to the church and then it said “here comes mummy” not to blow my own trumpet but it was really really cute. They played that for the congregation before I walked down the isle, it went down well.

 

We had Prosecco and cake (gluten free) on the church lawn with photos in the sunshine.

Later on in the day we all (100 of us) went to the Barn at Scorton and had our venue there, it was perfect. It’s a barn conversion/extension which is done in a modern, old wood kind of way with huge chandeliers. The weather was amazing (we haven’t had another day like it since the sun shined all day). The venue is really relaxed which we wanted and everyone enjoyed it. We had a serve yourself kind of meal (with a side of avocado… no seriously we did).

 

Then comes the party, it was so much fun to have all our friends and family in one room drinking way too much gin from the gin bar. We had the big doors open to the outside space and gorgeous views.

We feel so blessed it’s crazy. When we spoke afterwards, neither of us were nervous, my bridesmaids and dad were so nervous before we walked down the isle but I was as cool as a cucumber it just felt so right.

We have since moved in together and set up home and that is really special aswell. To start our lives together properly with little Fudge is an adventure everyday.

 

And no, no babies for a long time, we plan to enjoy life and travel before we even THINK about that.

We are happy and healthy and that is such a blessing, I can’t wait to see what the future holds.

5 healthier options to Easter Eggs

How many different easter eggs do the supermarkets stock! There is so much choice it sends my head spinning, but this year I wanted to give some lovely different ideas you could give to those you love rather than a chocolate hollow egg, or alternatively things you could alternatively ask for.

I am aware a lot of my readers/clients struggle with chronic illness so I wanted to give some other options to be able to avoid  sugar this easter. Sit your family/friends down and explain your trying to stay away from sugar to aid your recovery and you would appreciate their help to not buy you any sugar and maybe to think of some alternatives…

I love Easter eggs by the way but its the sheer amount we buy, why do I need 5-6 easter eggs? I don’t. I love the Greens and Blacks dark chocolate easter egg, that is my egg of choice but there are loads of alternatives especially when you are committed to your  recovery and health.

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  1. Flowers – tulips are so beautiful in spring, I would be thrilled if someone bought me a bunch of tulips rather than a chocolate egg which will give me bad side effects and make me feel lame. I would love to buy someone a bunch of flowers. Knowing that I am bringing them joy and not inhibiting their health.
  2. Deliciously Ella ball – I am loving the almond and cacao one. Dream.
  3. A tub of coconut oil – well thats always an amazing gift right?
  4. A new book or cook book
  5. Some beautiful beauty care – Origins, Neals Yard I love, as well as Burts Bees lip sticks

 

Let me know what you think, otherwise enjoy this Easter time.

Enjoy family time, Easter is so much more than eating our body weight in chocolate right.

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